Dear Diary,
Me: What the hell are you doing?!?!
He smelled of alcohol, drunk as hell.
...: From all people? I see you. What a small world
And he pulled me closer, I kept slamming his chest. Trying to free myself from his tight grasp.
Me: Aziz let me go!!!!
Aziz: Oh no honey, you're mine now
Me: I said let me go!!!!
I hit him straight across his nose, he cried in pain. But kept his hands wrapped around me. People started staring, but walked as if nothing was happening. Why wasn't anyone helping me?
Me: What do you want?!
Aziz: You. You left me you bitch, gouleely who'd you meet ha? WHO?!
Me: You're delusional, Im not like you, a lying ass hole. Let me go la aglb el denya foug ta7at
Aziz: Yallah gelbeeha khanshouf mnu besa3dch, everyone's watching you struggle, but no one's helping
Me: Tfou 3alaik
Aziz: You cunt
And he slapped me across my face real hard. I was on the floor, my nose was bleeding, I think.
...: HED'HA
I heard a scream, it was Sager
Aziz: Shtaby enta... twakal 3ala allah. malek sheghel
Sager: GELTLK HED'HA
Aziz: or what mathalan? haha
Sager hit him so hard, Aziz was shocked, eye's raging. I wanted to yell, say something, but nothing came out. I couldn't speak... All I saw was Aziz trying to punch him back, then someone was lying on the floor next to me
Everything blacked out.
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I woke up in a hospital bed, with an unfamiliar voice calling my name.
...: Farah, Farah?? Can you hear me?
Me: Sager? Shaikha? Where are they?! Did something happen to them?!
Doctor: Calm down! Im your doctor, Sager is outside waiting. I ordered him not to come in since you needed some rest. You got a nose bleed, nothing serious. You lost some blood but you're alright now el7amdellah. Sager info'd me with all the details. You'll be discharged in a couple of hours, no sudden movements, or extra activities for today... I suggest you use this day as a spa day for you to rest. Sager was concerned whether you were able to make it to the concert tomorrow, but I assured him you'd be just fine as long as you rested today.
Me: Can I see him please?
Doctor: Sure thing, i'll let him in now
A few seconds later, Sager came in. His shirt had a stains of blood. But he looked fine
Sager: 7beebti Farah, Im sorry...
Me: Dont, it's my fault... How'd you know I was in trouble
Sager: You forgot your Room key card, so I told Shaikha to wait 3ala ma arou7 wa36eech eyah. And when I reached you, I saw that, that wa9ekh holding you like that. I went mad, I probably broke his jaw. And he won't ever bother you again, I assure you that.
Me: And where's Shaikha now?
Sager: I told her to go back to the hotel, at first ma rethat, then she realized how stressed I was, and ma kan wakt nejra and she went, she's been calling every 30 min to check up on you.
Me: Tell her to come! laish ma khalait'ha
Sager: You needed rest
he said through gritted teeth
I stayed there quiet, painting his figure in my mind, trying to remember this beautiful portrait of his. His dirty beard perfect with his tan enhancing his strong jaw.
Sager: Laish t6al3een chthy? Smiling
Me: kaify, a6al3k
Sager: La la chthy ast7yyy
And he covered his face, acting dalou3 and all... he always knows how to make me laugh
Me: hahahaha, you're so silly
Sager: Anything to make you smile
Me: I love you, I really do
Sager: I know... I love you too, Im never gonna let anything happen to you
Me: Please let Shaikha come, I wanna see her
Sager: *sigh* not now... you need to rest.
How about this? Take a nap, and by the time you wake up btshoufeen
shayoukha jdamch, 7lu?
Me: Really?
Sager: Have I ever backed out on my word?
Me: Never
Sager: Good, now sleep tight
He kissed my forehead resting his hand on my jaw, smiling... he hesitantly made his way to the door, as if not wanting to leave me.
I doze off and woke up on the voices of Sager and Shaikha whispering to each other... I tried figuring out what they were saying.
Shaikha: She's gonna be okay?
Sager: Enshallah
Shaikha: I dont wanna loose her Sager
Sager: Neither do I Shaikha, I wanna spend the rest of my life with her
Shaikha: And you will
Sager: Allah kareem
Their voices sounded broken, I decided to show them I was alright, energetic, healthy. Even though I knew every organ in me was slowly dying.
Me: IM UPPPPP
Shaikha: FARAAAHHHH!
She came over to my bedside and gave me a bone crushing hug
Me: Yuba ma9ar feeny shay! Im alright! The dr said Im free to go in a hour or so
Shaikha: Kheft 3alaichhhhhh
Me: Agoulch mafeeny ella el 3afya, stop over exaggerating you guys! It's just a nose bleed!
Shaikha: El kalb Sagoor makhalany ayee ma3ah
Sager: Ana chalb? La a9eedch ya shaikho, lage9 lsanech elli sh6oula
Shaikha: hehehe, ushh
Sager: 6aaa33
A knock on the door interrupted us
Nurse: e7m, sorry for disturbing you guys, Im Nurse Reem, Im here to help Farah change
Me: I don't need help
Nurse: Im afraid the doctor insisted on me helping you... you're too tired
Me: I said Im fine, I don't need your help. I can do it on my own
Sager: Farah, sm3ay el kalam... yallah shaikha khal ne6la3
And they left the room
Nurse Reem helped me get up. I pushed her hand away, I was strong enough
Nurse: Please Ms Farah let me help
Me: FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME I CAN GET UP ON MY OWN! IM NOT A KID. LEAVE ME ALONE
The second I was on my feet, my legs let me down... I collapsed on the floor, crying vulnerably on the cold lifeless white ground
Nurse: Shhh my baby, shhhh... everything's going to be alright, just take it one step at a time
Me: Im losing everything, I can't even walk *sniff sniff*
Nurse: What's important is in here
And she pointed her finger on my heart
Nurse: Don't ever lose what's in here. Always... always have this strong big heart. With every punch you get, with every stab, with ever set back. Make that the reason for your heart to pump harder, louder. Never give up my dear, ever.
Life was never on how long you get to live in no, life is much more than that, life is on how you spend it.
She wiped my tears away, and helped me get dressed, and pushed me out the door with a wheelchair. And whispered in my ear
Nurse: Strength was never on the outside. Strength always lies within. And I can tell you this baby girl, you're one of the strongest girls I've met, may god bless you
I gave her a tight hug, she stayed there smiling, watching me as they pushed me with my wheelchair outside the hospital
Me: What the hell are you doing?!?!
He smelled of alcohol, drunk as hell.
...: From all people? I see you. What a small world
And he pulled me closer, I kept slamming his chest. Trying to free myself from his tight grasp.
Me: Aziz let me go!!!!
Aziz: Oh no honey, you're mine now
Me: I said let me go!!!!
I hit him straight across his nose, he cried in pain. But kept his hands wrapped around me. People started staring, but walked as if nothing was happening. Why wasn't anyone helping me?
Me: What do you want?!
Aziz: You. You left me you bitch, gouleely who'd you meet ha? WHO?!
Me: You're delusional, Im not like you, a lying ass hole. Let me go la aglb el denya foug ta7at
Aziz: Yallah gelbeeha khanshouf mnu besa3dch, everyone's watching you struggle, but no one's helping
Me: Tfou 3alaik
Aziz: You cunt
And he slapped me across my face real hard. I was on the floor, my nose was bleeding, I think.
...: HED'HA
I heard a scream, it was Sager
Aziz: Shtaby enta... twakal 3ala allah. malek sheghel
Sager: GELTLK HED'HA
Aziz: or what mathalan? haha
Sager hit him so hard, Aziz was shocked, eye's raging. I wanted to yell, say something, but nothing came out. I couldn't speak... All I saw was Aziz trying to punch him back, then someone was lying on the floor next to me
Everything blacked out.
.
.
.
.
.
I woke up in a hospital bed, with an unfamiliar voice calling my name.
...: Farah, Farah?? Can you hear me?
Me: Sager? Shaikha? Where are they?! Did something happen to them?!
Doctor: Calm down! Im your doctor, Sager is outside waiting. I ordered him not to come in since you needed some rest. You got a nose bleed, nothing serious. You lost some blood but you're alright now el7amdellah. Sager info'd me with all the details. You'll be discharged in a couple of hours, no sudden movements, or extra activities for today... I suggest you use this day as a spa day for you to rest. Sager was concerned whether you were able to make it to the concert tomorrow, but I assured him you'd be just fine as long as you rested today.
Me: Can I see him please?
Doctor: Sure thing, i'll let him in now
A few seconds later, Sager came in. His shirt had a stains of blood. But he looked fine
Sager: 7beebti Farah, Im sorry...
Me: Dont, it's my fault... How'd you know I was in trouble
Sager: You forgot your Room key card, so I told Shaikha to wait 3ala ma arou7 wa36eech eyah. And when I reached you, I saw that, that wa9ekh holding you like that. I went mad, I probably broke his jaw. And he won't ever bother you again, I assure you that.
Me: And where's Shaikha now?
Sager: I told her to go back to the hotel, at first ma rethat, then she realized how stressed I was, and ma kan wakt nejra and she went, she's been calling every 30 min to check up on you.
Me: Tell her to come! laish ma khalait'ha
Sager: You needed rest
he said through gritted teeth
I stayed there quiet, painting his figure in my mind, trying to remember this beautiful portrait of his. His dirty beard perfect with his tan enhancing his strong jaw.
Sager: Laish t6al3een chthy? Smiling
Me: kaify, a6al3k
Sager: La la chthy ast7yyy
And he covered his face, acting dalou3 and all... he always knows how to make me laugh
Me: hahahaha, you're so silly
Sager: Anything to make you smile
Me: I love you, I really do
Sager: I know... I love you too, Im never gonna let anything happen to you
Me: Please let Shaikha come, I wanna see her
Sager: *sigh* not now... you need to rest.
How about this? Take a nap, and by the time you wake up btshoufeen
shayoukha jdamch, 7lu?
Me: Really?
Sager: Have I ever backed out on my word?
Me: Never
Sager: Good, now sleep tight
He kissed my forehead resting his hand on my jaw, smiling... he hesitantly made his way to the door, as if not wanting to leave me.
I doze off and woke up on the voices of Sager and Shaikha whispering to each other... I tried figuring out what they were saying.
Shaikha: She's gonna be okay?
Sager: Enshallah
Shaikha: I dont wanna loose her Sager
Sager: Neither do I Shaikha, I wanna spend the rest of my life with her
Shaikha: And you will
Sager: Allah kareem
Their voices sounded broken, I decided to show them I was alright, energetic, healthy. Even though I knew every organ in me was slowly dying.
Me: IM UPPPPP
Shaikha: FARAAAHHHH!
She came over to my bedside and gave me a bone crushing hug
Me: Yuba ma9ar feeny shay! Im alright! The dr said Im free to go in a hour or so
Shaikha: Kheft 3alaichhhhhh
Me: Agoulch mafeeny ella el 3afya, stop over exaggerating you guys! It's just a nose bleed!
Shaikha: El kalb Sagoor makhalany ayee ma3ah
Sager: Ana chalb? La a9eedch ya shaikho, lage9 lsanech elli sh6oula
Shaikha: hehehe, ushh
Sager: 6aaa33
A knock on the door interrupted us
Nurse: e7m, sorry for disturbing you guys, Im Nurse Reem, Im here to help Farah change
Me: I don't need help
Nurse: Im afraid the doctor insisted on me helping you... you're too tired
Me: I said Im fine, I don't need your help. I can do it on my own
Sager: Farah, sm3ay el kalam... yallah shaikha khal ne6la3
And they left the room
Nurse Reem helped me get up. I pushed her hand away, I was strong enough
Nurse: Please Ms Farah let me help
Me: FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME I CAN GET UP ON MY OWN! IM NOT A KID. LEAVE ME ALONE
The second I was on my feet, my legs let me down... I collapsed on the floor, crying vulnerably on the cold lifeless white ground
Nurse: Shhh my baby, shhhh... everything's going to be alright, just take it one step at a time
Me: Im losing everything, I can't even walk *sniff sniff*
Nurse: What's important is in here
And she pointed her finger on my heart
Nurse: Don't ever lose what's in here. Always... always have this strong big heart. With every punch you get, with every stab, with ever set back. Make that the reason for your heart to pump harder, louder. Never give up my dear, ever.
Life was never on how long you get to live in no, life is much more than that, life is on how you spend it.
She wiped my tears away, and helped me get dressed, and pushed me out the door with a wheelchair. And whispered in my ear
Nurse: Strength was never on the outside. Strength always lies within. And I can tell you this baby girl, you're one of the strongest girls I've met, may god bless you
I gave her a tight hug, she stayed there smiling, watching me as they pushed me with my wheelchair outside the hospital
