Sunday, July 21, 2013

One step at a time 29

Dear Diary, 

Me: What the hell are you doing?!?! 

He smelled of alcohol, drunk as hell. 

...: From all people? I see you. What a small world 

And he pulled me closer, I kept slamming his chest. Trying to free myself from his tight grasp. 

Me: Aziz let me go!!!! 

Aziz: Oh no honey, you're mine now 


Me: I said let me go!!!! 

I hit him straight across his nose, he cried in pain. But kept his hands wrapped around me. People started staring, but walked as if nothing was happening. Why wasn't anyone helping me? 


Me: What do you want?!

Aziz: You. You left me you bitch, gouleely who'd you meet ha? WHO?! 

Me: You're delusional, Im not like you, a lying ass hole. Let me go la aglb el denya foug ta7at

Aziz: Yallah gelbeeha khanshouf mnu besa3dch, everyone's watching you struggle, but no one's helping 

Me: Tfou 3alaik 

Aziz: You cunt

And he slapped me across my face real hard. I was on the floor, my nose was bleeding, I think. 

...: HED'HA 

I heard a scream, it was Sager

Aziz: Shtaby enta... twakal 3ala allah. malek sheghel

Sager: GELTLK HED'HA 

Aziz: or what mathalan? haha 

Sager hit him so hard, Aziz was shocked, eye's raging. I wanted to yell, say something, but nothing came out. I couldn't speak... All I saw was Aziz trying to punch him back, then someone was lying on the floor next to me

Everything blacked out. 
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I woke up in a hospital bed, with an unfamiliar voice calling my name. 

...: Farah, Farah?? Can you hear me? 

Me: Sager? Shaikha? Where are they?! Did something happen to them?! 

Doctor: Calm down! Im your doctor, Sager is outside waiting. I ordered him not to come in since you needed some rest. You got a nose bleed, nothing serious. You lost some blood but you're alright now el7amdellah. Sager info'd me with all the details. You'll be discharged in a couple of hours, no sudden movements, or extra activities for today... I suggest you use this day as a spa day for you to rest. Sager was concerned whether you were able to make it to the concert tomorrow, but I assured him you'd be just fine as long as you rested today. 

Me: Can I see him please?

Doctor: Sure thing, i'll let him in now

A few seconds later, Sager came in. His shirt had a stains of blood. But he looked fine 

Sager: 7beebti Farah, Im sorry... 

Me: Dont, it's my fault... How'd you know I was in trouble 

Sager: You forgot your Room key card, so I told Shaikha to wait 3ala ma arou7 wa36eech eyah. And when I reached you, I saw that, that wa9ekh holding you like that. I went mad, I probably broke his jaw. And he won't ever bother you again, I assure you that. 

Me: And where's Shaikha now? 

Sager: I told her to go back to the hotel, at first ma rethat, then she realized how stressed I was, and ma kan wakt nejra and she went, she's been calling every 30 min to check up on you. 

Me: Tell her to come! laish ma khalait'ha 

Sager: You needed rest 

he said through gritted teeth 

I stayed there quiet, painting his figure in my mind, trying to remember this beautiful portrait of his. His dirty beard perfect with his tan enhancing his strong jaw.

Sager: Laish t6al3een chthy? Smiling

Me: kaify, a6al3k

Sager: La la chthy ast7yyy 

And he covered his face, acting dalou3 and all... he always knows how to make me laugh 

Me: hahahaha, you're so silly 

Sager: Anything to make you smile

Me: I love you, I really do 

Sager: I know... I love you too, Im never gonna let anything happen to you 

Me: Please let Shaikha come, I wanna see her

Sager: *sigh* not now... you need to rest. 
                How about this? Take a nap, and by the time you wake up btshoufeen         
                shayoukha jdamch, 7lu?

Me: Really? 

Sager: Have I ever backed out on my word? 

Me: Never 

Sager: Good, now sleep tight 


He kissed my forehead resting his hand on my jaw, smiling... he hesitantly made his way to the door, as if not wanting to leave me. 
I doze off and woke up on the voices of Sager and Shaikha whispering to each other... I tried figuring out what they were saying. 

Shaikha: She's gonna be okay?

Sager: Enshallah

Shaikha: I dont wanna loose her Sager 

Sager: Neither do I Shaikha, I wanna spend the rest of my life with her 

Shaikha: And you will 

Sager: Allah kareem 

Their voices sounded broken, I decided to show them I was alright, energetic, healthy. Even though I knew every organ in me was slowly dying. 

Me: IM UPPPPP 

Shaikha: FARAAAHHHH! 

She came over to my bedside and gave me a bone crushing hug 

Me: Yuba ma9ar feeny shay! Im alright! The dr said Im free to go in a hour or so 

Shaikha: Kheft 3alaichhhhhh 

Me: Agoulch mafeeny ella el 3afya, stop over exaggerating you guys! It's just a nose bleed! 

Shaikha: El kalb Sagoor makhalany ayee ma3ah 

Sager: Ana chalb? La a9eedch ya shaikho, lage9 lsanech elli sh6oula 

Shaikha: hehehe, ushh 

Sager: 6aaa33 

A knock on the door interrupted us 

Nurse: e7m, sorry for disturbing you guys, Im Nurse Reem, Im here to help Farah change 

Me: I don't need help 

Nurse: Im afraid the doctor insisted on me helping you... you're too tired

Me: I said Im fine, I don't need your help. I can do it on my own 

Sager: Farah, sm3ay el kalam... yallah shaikha khal ne6la3 

And they left the room 

Nurse Reem helped me get up. I pushed her hand away, I was strong enough 

Nurse: Please Ms Farah let me help

Me: FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME I CAN GET UP ON MY OWN! IM NOT A KID. LEAVE ME ALONE 

The second I was on my feet, my legs let me down... I collapsed on the floor, crying vulnerably on the cold lifeless white ground

Nurse: Shhh my baby, shhhh... everything's going to be alright, just take it one step at a time

Me: Im losing everything, I can't even walk *sniff sniff* 

Nurse: What's important is in here 

And she pointed her finger on my heart

Nurse: Don't ever lose what's in here. Always... always have this strong big heart. With every punch you get, with every stab, with ever set back. Make that the reason for your heart to pump harder, louder. Never give up my dear, ever.

Life was never on how long you get to live in no, life is much more than that, life is on how you spend it. 

She wiped my tears away, and helped me get dressed, and pushed me out the door with a wheelchair. And whispered in my ear 

Nurse: Strength was never on the outside. Strength always lies within. And I can tell you this baby girl, you're one of the strongest girls I've met, may god bless you 

I gave her a tight hug, she stayed there smiling, watching me as they pushed me with my wheelchair outside the hospital 












Friday, July 12, 2013

One Step At A Time 28

Dear Diary,


Sager called me today all excited and fired up

Sager: Fraai777! Do you trust me???? Bser3a bser3a jawbaayyy

Me: Eeeh eeeh I do, shelsaaalfaaa?

Sager: Jahzay jan6a feeha malabes enough for a couple of days, bensafer!

Me: and my mom shloun? and the tickets?

Sager: I took care of all of that, kalamt umech ou ekhty eb tyee weyana!

Me: Are you serious?!

Sager: Do I look like I'm kidding? Yallah rou7ay jahzay ashya2ech bser3a

Me: Enshallah

I quickly went and packed my stuff. I folded a couple of shirts and 2 pairs of jeans. That should do for a few days. I heard the bell ring and it was Sager waiting for me. I went to my mom and kissed her on her forehead. 

Mama: Deer balech 7beebti, and have fun

Me: Enshallah mama, thank you for everything 

Mama: I love you, you're always gonna be my baby you know that?

Me: And you're always gonna be my favorite person in the world, did YOU know that?

She gave me a tight hug and one last kiss, before I knew it I was in the car with Sager and we were off to the airport.

Me: Wain bnsafer? 

Sager: Dubai for the next couple of days 

Me: This is gonna be exciting


Sager: Yes it will, muahaha were alone... at last 

Me: yal sakheef sh'hal tha7ka? haha, enzain where's your sister?

Sager: al7eeeen ana elli 9ert sakheef haaa? mashi Farouu7 

Me: 6oul 3umrk sakheef

I gave him this lukewarm smile, shakakta eb 3umra 

Sager: ana a3almch

He suddenly stepped on the gas so hard, we almost reached 200 

Me: SAAAAGER!!! ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL US!?!! 

Sager: Take it back! 

ME: TAKE WHAT BACK?!?!

Sager: Ena ana sakheef

ME: ENTA MU SAKHEEF ZAIN!

Sager: Say it like you mean it

Me: MU SAKHEEEEEFFF SAGER!!! 

Sager: Okay much better now

And he slowed down 
I started mumbling to myself, jesus. He was so reckless at times. 

Sager: What are you saying? I cant hear you

Me: Nothing nothing, but don't ever do that again! I almost pissed my pants 

Sager: That would be fun to see hahahah 

Me: Mara7 a3aleq, 3ashan latdous 

Sager: sha6oura

We made it to the airport in 10 minutes, unloaded the baggage and made our way to starbucks 3ala ma Shaikha came... 
Shaikha, Sager's sister joined us 30 minutes later, she seemed so happy 


Sager: I forgot to tell you guys, were going to David Guetta's concert 

Me: Are you serious!!! 

Shaikha: LATTCHATHEB!! 

Sager: Ussshhh ga9raw 7eskum fetha7touna 

Shaikha: Thank you 9agour wallah!! This is week couldn't have gone any better! 

Me: Shme3na this week 3ad? 

Shaikha: I haven't told you? Next month is my last chemotherapy session, and Im done! No more cancer! I just have to get a check up every 3 months to see if it comes back.


               I was happy, don't get me wrong. I really was, but... I was slowly losing hope. Every time I consulted the doctor all I got was the same answer. 'No progress yet' 
               I mean that isn't normal right? I've been doing chemo for over 6 months, and still nothing? I decided to consult my doctor again and see what he has to say. There might be a chance of me getting a bone marrow transplant. I shook my head as trying to scatter these thoughts away. forget it all. 

Me: Im so happy for you! El7amdellaaahhhh! Aaalfff el7amdellaaah! 

Sager: We all are! Wnshallah yay dourch ba3ad

Me: I hope so, enshallah 

Shaikha: You guys our flight! They're boarding yallah khan rou7

       We picked up our purses and made our way to Gate 6. The flight went smooth, laughing and cracking jokes to kill time. We reached Dubai at there 6:00 pm local time. Dropped our luggage, and made our way to The Walk. It was za7ma full of Arab, probably here for the concert as well. I excused myself from Shaikha and Sager, asking them to go back to the hotel.

Shaikha: Ge3day!! maby ag3ad with Sagoor, he'll give me these life lessons

Sager: Life lessons that'll actually help you one day! you should thank me! 

Shaikha: sure *rolling eyes* 

Me: You guys, Im tired, I need to rest! Shaikha, you have an extra card to our room right? And Sager, the room next to us? 

Sager: Actually 2 rooms away

Me: That's okay, now if you'll excuse me... I'd like to have a hot bubble bath 

Sager: 3ala ra7tch, take care 

Me: Enshallah Sager

    He leaned in closer to me and whispered 


Sager: I love you 

Me: I love you too 

Shaikha: What are you guys mumbling to each other?? 

Sager: Entay sh'hal legafa? malech sheghel 

Me: Sager! Stop being mean 

Sager: Enzain yallah go back to the hotel gabel ma e9eer late, your gonna walk back to Jumeirah right?

Me: yeah 

Sager: deer balech 

Me: Enshallah 

I started walking towards our hotel, it wasn't that far away... 15 minutes by feet maybe? I felt a pair of strong hands on my shoulder. I turned around and couldn't believe it. The audacity!  







Wednesday, April 10, 2013

A little twist, more like a major one

Okay, so I decided to write something in arabic... If I get positive feedbacks, i'll write a few more posts just for the fun of it. Mind the badleyat please xoxo

ترى والله الدنيا ما تسوى
ما تسوى كل هل بجي
كل هل تعب
كل هل هم 
بسيطة السالفة 
الناس ما تسوى 
لي متى نرد وانعيد
مهما سويت، مهما كنت راح تنجرح 
لعنبوك لي متى ارد واعيد عليك 
مب تفهم؟ 
الدنيا مب توقف على احد
الحق عليها واركض قبل ما الدنيا تركض وتدوس عليك 
و السلام عليكم 

Thursday, February 28, 2013

One Step At A Time 27

Dear Diary, 

I spent my days writing a bucket list... I took that list everywhere I went, just in case I got a new idea. 



BUCKET LIST 



1. Let go of a floating lantern.

2. crowd surf 

3. Build a mosque

4. Have all my family and friends together in my graduation, including my dad 

5. Die with no regrets 


I took it to my chemotherapy session, that put my mind away from the poison they injected in me... I spent a lot of time thinking about the days I had left, I knew it wasn't much, but it was enough for me to make a difference. The session was over before I knew it, and I found Sager waiting for me outside, with a smile so energetic, so full of life, it made my heart stop 


Sager: Hala hala 

Me: Heeyyyyy 

Sager: Shlounch yal khabla, feeling better?

Me: ye3ni laish tes2al etha t3aref el su2al? Im gonna feel like crap from the next couple of days 

Sager: thats why I went and got you your favorite chocolate and snacks, and movies 

Me: shdarak shnu a7eb?! 

Sager: I asked Noura 

Me: I love you

Sager: I love you too Farah, now ta3alay let me help you in the car, you seem tired 


Me: okayy 


Sager reached out for my hand, completely unaware that I had my bucket list held eb the same hand that I gave to him, he held the paper real quick 


Me: Give it back Sager! 


Sager: Shnu hatha? 


Me: Just give it baaacckk 


Sager:'a bucket list' ? why? 


Me: Cause Im dying! Im dying Sager! I wanna do the things I always wanted to do

Sager: LATGOULEEN CHTHY!! CHAM MARA AGOULCH YOUR NOT GOING TO DIE. YOUR A STRONG PERSON AND YOUR GOING TO GO THROUGH THIS


I just stayed quiet... staring into his eyes. he looked scared, like a lost puppy.


Sager: *sigh* you really wanna do this don't you? 

Me: Yes

Sager: Mhm... elyoum fathya? 

Me: eeh laish? 

Sager: ba6al3ech

Me: bss bakoun ta3bana 

Sager: latkhafeen, mara7 net7arak, bss bawadeech mukan blsayara. I wanna show you something 

Me: okay, bss elsa3a cham akoun jahza?

Sager: throury throury tkouneen khal9a gabel el maghreb 

Me: khala9 okay, bss let me go home anam shway, take a shower wabadel 

Sager: enzain, now lets take you home beautiful 

Me: look who's talking 




It was time for us to go out, the car ride was a long one, I can assure you that. We spent it listening to music, and dancing. 


Me: wain btwadeeny?

Sager: I go to this place every time I want to be alone. I used to go there with my grandpa every week. It's so remote, and quiet. you won't find a single soul there.

Me:  do you take all your girlfriends here to impress them?

Sager: actually, I took one person here, the person I wanna spend the rest of my life with. Which is you. 


I just stayed quiet, blushing


Sager: Now close your eyes for me will you?


Me: okay 


He placed his hands over my eyes, seeing that he "can't trust me" lol. 


Sager: deer balech...  careful Farah


Me: Where are we?


Sager: Entay mafeech 9aber? Ne6ray 


Me: Enzain enzain 


Sager: Okay open your eyes 


We were somewhere in the desert, on top of a small hill... huge rocks surrounding us making it seem like we were centered in between all of this. I looked straight up and the sunset looked beautiful. A rush of colors collided on top of each other making it seem like a piece of heaven






Me: This is... beautiful 


Sager: *whispering* Nothing compared to your beauty 


He turned me around so he can face me. 


Sager: I have one more thing. Just give me a second ayeeba mn el sayara. 


He went back to the car and came back a few minutes later with a marker and a bag. 6ala3 something mn the bag


Me: What's that?


Sager: A lantern, the first thing in your bucket list. I wanna fulfill all of them for you. 


Me: Sager you shouldn't have, laish ta3abt 3umrek 


Sager: I wanted to, now what do you wanna write 3al lantern so we can light it up


Me: hmmm... How about " One Step At A Time" 


Sager: Perfect


he looked so beautiful under the reflection of all the colors. I could see his biceps slowly clenching as he wrote the words ever so carefully on the lantern.


Sager: Yallah, we light it al7een?


Me: Yes


Both of us held it, facing each other with the lantern keep us apart, we waited till it could float on it's own and we let it go, both of us, watching it silently as we watched it float away. He leaned closer to me, and kissed me on my forehead. We stayed like this in each others arm, sitting on a rock for an hour or so. I kept thinking, and all I could conclude is, he's the one.





Saturday, February 9, 2013

One Step At A Time 26

Dear Diary,


We all decided to go out together, Me, Shaikha, Sager, and Noura... Shahad had studying to do, so she stayed at home, catching up with all the lessons she missed.


Noura: Where do you guys wanna go?


Sager: Maskeena m9adga btsougeen ma3a wayhech? Kafy ena Shaikha 7anechat akhethkum, ou kalemat umy, ou umy qa9ebatny, wela ana 3ala buna barou7 agez blshallaih weya rab3y ou nthabe6 banat


He was saying this, completely oblivious that I was there. Wela hama


Noura: Waaai3 nethamek t'thabe6 banat yal 7oushy



Sager: Mu ay bent, sheftlech wa7da el sbou3 elli 6aaf, mu bss jameeeelaa... yaaaaww, 3agly 6ar awal ma I laid eyes on her


Noura: Malat 3laik bss, telgaha wa7da jaikara nafsek


Sager: Ana jaikar? Ma sheftay nafsech yal qeefa


Noura: Farooh, 9a7 uhwa jaikar?


Farah: Shaikha ana asfa, bss 9ej... qe6a3 jaikar 7ail, la mn jesem, wela mn wayh, wela mn akhlaq.


And I gave him the most coldest stare ever. He looked at me appalled, and I walked away, completely aware he was still staring at me like an idiot.


Noura trying to ease the atmosphere: Ooooooh, buuurrrrn


Sager: Chubay noura


And I walked away mad... as confused as I was, I realized. What just happened a few minutes ago, was jealousy. No no no, me? Jealous? 3lay uhwa? Hell to the no... Walking through the crowd mad as ever,  I hear someone calling me.



...: Faraah!! Fraaaai7


I turned around, and surprisingly it was Fahad, my old childhood friend!


Farah: FHAAAIIDD what brings you here?


Fahad: maku wallah yay akheth shaghla ou barja3 el bait


I gave him the most biggest bone crushing hug just to annoy the hell out of Sager. I could see his hands all clenched up in a fist.... Fahad comfortably put his arms around me, completely oblivious of the fact that people were staring.


Me: Oh, can't believe I almost forgot... Fahad, this is Sager, My friend Shaikha's brother, and 6ab3an Noura you know her



Noura: mhhhhmmmm, ohh myy have you grown, looking fine I see


Checking him out mn foug lai ta7at, typical Noura, I rolled my eyes at her


Fahad: Your not so bad yourself


Fahah turned out to Sager and Shaikha 3ashan eesalm 3laihum


Sager: Salam ou 3laikum


And they started talking about god knows what, a few minutes later Fahad excused himself, seeing that he was late for something, and he had to go, I gave him another hug, and I made sure I lingered long enough. He smiled and left. 


Sager: Farah. 


Me: Shtaby? 


Sager: Ummm, farah your nose?


Me: Shfeeh? 


I put my hand over my nose, and found blood all over my hand 


Me: Oh shit! 


Sager: Wait, lemme look at it


Me: Latjeesny, I can handle this on my own


I kept walking faster, and he quickened up the pace as well, I quickly entered the women's bathroom. And took a wad of tissue covering the nose bleed, and tilted my head backwards to keep it from getting worse 


My phone kept vibrating, I knew it was Sager that wouldn't stop calling, I answered him. 


Farah: Yaaaal 7inch!!! jesus, just leave me alone, don't you get it? I don't need your help! I never needed your help, and I never will! Now piss off. 


And I closed the phone eb wayha. Suddenly a rush of guilt filled me from head to toe. 6ela3t bars bser3a batsafla, he looked at me, and was just about to walk away. I fell. 6e7t ghashyana, cause of all the pressure, cause of this nose bleed, cause of how i hurt him. 



*Hours later* 



I woke up in the hospital bed kal3ada, no one was there to be found... I got a glimpse of Sage talking to the Dr. then I heard the door open, and it was him. I faked being asleep, I was so ashamed, and couldn't look him in the eye after what I told him. 


I could feel his breath on my face, and suddenly I felt someone holding my hand


Sager *whispering*  : Farah, please just wake up... you don't know how hard it is for me to see you like this... It's killing me, the fact that your not mine, the fact that you can slip away from my fingers in a heartbeat, the fact that I can't take care of you, the fact that everyday you struggle, but law bss tadreen how much I wish what was happening to you e9eer feeny... اللهم رب الناس اذهب الباس واشفي انت الشافي شفاءا لايغادر سقما ولا ألما.. he kept repeating this over and over again.... until suddenly I heard him say it. Farah I love you, if only you knew. 



Unexpectedly, I squeezed his hand, and pulled him closer to me 



Me: I love you too 




Thursday, December 27, 2012

One Step At A Time 25

Dear Diary,


Weeks passed by wana eb nafs el 7ala, in and out of the hospital every week... I kept over hearing the Doctor telling my mom I wasn't getting any better, but they still had to encourage me, and give me hope... though I know for sure I know have a 50/50 chance in living. Shaikha spent the day at my house, we had a blast


Shaikha: *Burp*


Farah: Hahahaha, weja3!


Shaikha: chub wela chna tawa you burped a bigger one


Me: *BURRRRP*


Shaikha: 3afyaaaaa taryou3aaaaa! Baaaal 3laaaaaich


The bell suddenly rang, and it was Sager... waiting for his sister to finish eating dinner


Me: ge3daaaaayy, latrou7een, taw el nas! ye3ni lazem ukhouch elmaleeq eekhareb 3laina


Shaikha: Magdar, lazem arou7... beezifny la2ana ga3d ana6ra bl 7ar


Mama: khaleeh eedish, 3adi... wetha ma retha, tell farah to go outside to talk to him


Shaikha: Khalty ra7 ee3a9eb


Mama: Nonsense, he's part of the family now.


Shaikha: Enshallah arou7 anady


So me and Shaikha, walked outside. I stayed next to the gate giving her and Sager some privacy. I can see, the anger in his eyes. He was probably more embarrassed than angry. haha, a7san. ana a3alma law ma fashalta. Both Shaikha and Sager walked in the house, Sager without even smiling or saying hi to me


Sager: Salam khalty shlounch? 


Mama: Bkhair 7abeebi, and you?


Sager: el7amdellah tamam


Me: Haaa Sager laish kent m3a9eb a few minutes ago, shda3wa mataby tdesh lai hal daraja *eyebrows raised*


Sager: Laa mu 3an


And Shaikha interrupted him: eeeeh khalty law tshoufeena! Fe9al 3lay, 7saita bughait yerga3ny, ga3d egoul fashla deshay el sayara 


Sager through gritted teeth: eklay tben entay weyaha la arga3 wyouhkum bl 6oufa 


Me: Ha Sager ma sema3tek? Haw shfeek 


Shaikha winked back at me which meant, 7ailna 3laih. Wayha 9ar a7mar, and mom started laughing


Mama: Bss a7ratjaw el walad! hahahaha, yallah ya jema3a ana badesh ghurfuty, have fun doing whatever you wanna do together. 


Me and shaikha: bahahahahaahahhaha " La mu 3an" MASSKEEEN 


Sager: Ana a3almch


And before he could catch Shaikha, she ran so fast, and was out of sight. It was only us 


Sager: Ahaa, so I guess this is only me and you haaa


And he gave me his smile... akhhh my heart just melted


Me: haha wakher 3any 


Sager: Maku 


Me: Wallah a6gk 


Sager: Jarbay 


Me: A9lan agdar asheelk yal 3a9aya, awal mara ashouf 9bay la 3anda 3athalat wela 3anda shay 


Sager: Ahaaaa.... bedaina haaaa.... ana ma 3andy 3athalat? 


Me: Eeeh ma3andk


Sager: khanshouf shloun elli ma 3anda 3athalat beesheelch


Me: Saaagggerrr laaaaaa *giggle* 


I took the bottle of water and poured it on top of him


Sager: Aaaaaaa7777, BAAAARED! 


Me: Muahahahahaha, 3shan matjeesny 


Sager: Shloun ba6la3 al7een?


Me: Take of your shirt eb the room over there, and I'll give you one of dad's old shirts


Sager: Enzain


He took a long time changing so I decided to check up on him, I knocked once, no one answered....


Me: Sager??? 


No answer whatsoever 


Me: Saaaager?? 


I went in, afraid he might have got an asthma attack or something, but I found him looking at the pictures me mom had put up on the wall... He was staring at them, un aware that he was still topless. Oh my god, his body, his perfect biceps, he's so Aaaaahh. I dropped a souvenir on the floor blghala6, 6ela3 kent ga3d atsanad 3lay wana mu mstaw3eba. Umbay fashlaaaaa


Me: Umm, s-s-sorry ma kan... 


And I got lost in his eyes, he came closer and closer by the second, we were dangerously close to each other, I can feel his breathe on my neck. 


Sager whispering: its kind of rude to stare haha 


I snapped back to reality 


Me: Wai3 mn zeenk ag3ad akhzk


And just as I was gonna push him away, I just couldn't, My hand stayed there, more like froze there, on his chest. He put his hands in mine, and we just stood there. Gazing into each others eyes, speaking though our mouths weren't moving, we knew our eyes could say it all... I almost heard Sager whisper a7bch


Me: What?


Sager: e7mm... wela shay 


and he quickly put his shirt back on, completely ignoring the fact of what just happened between us